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Sunday, September 18th, 2016
6:56 pm
The Allure of the lustful Pan
Not at all like Peter
Although, similar in mischievous - and- clever - ness

The tempestuous Pandora, the terrible Medusa and the dreamland beyond the Styx
With Charon and Virgil your guides

The immortals of immortal legend live on even in our own mortal memories and imaginations

But we will never forget them, the old gods, nymphs and horse-men

Nor can we.

The immortals

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Monday, June 6th, 2016
2:07 pm
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2:05 pm
Spilled milk
That one drop of spilled milk
The distress it has caused you
Death has begun.

The face withdraws, the milk evaporates and the conversation goes on
But death has begun.

Darkness has begun
There, in the full jonquil-blaze of the dinner table candles.


A spot no bigger at first than that first drop of spilled milk

Steadily growing
By the day
By the week, the month
Until it has blotted out everything else

Until all is darkness
Until there is nothing but darkness

And fear
And pain
And doom

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Wednesday, February 11th, 2015
10:41 pm
SNICKERS® - “The Brady Bunch”

marsha brady turns badass
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Wednesday, December 31st, 2014
10:36 pm
Wide Awake (revelry in a dream)
The curse is lifted, the path shines clear in the brilliant light
the light was dim 'till now
'Twas blind but now I see!

Salvation came
In the form of a dark stranger
Who, at first
hurt me then awakened me from this

I shall now ask--
for whom does the bell toll?
No more for me!

G-d is smiling upon me once more!
I shall return to Him with Praises and Exultations!
No longer are the unanswered questions in my mind confusing me!
For now they have been answered with Enlightening Clarity!
I shall make my triumphant return to the waking world
Through His Graces!

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Friday, October 24th, 2014
10:01 pm
I like scary movies. I just always did. Yesterday. However I just saw a very disturbing film complete with graphic scenes of slow torture and grotesque abortions. I feel really numb and I don't want to do anything anymore. I don't know if it's related but I started feeling this right after the movie. I'm bored and can usually find something to do but it's like I don't care anymore. What's wrong with me?
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Saturday, July 12th, 2014
7:27 pm
of dreams and wishes
Starry starry eyes
Paint my face of blue and gray
Just as the moon reflects the sun
Your sunny disposition
Brightens my long night.

Speak now, of dreams
And wishes
And fairy-tale bedtime stories
For if those dreams are my salvation
I would sleep forever
Just to dream of you.

The Darkness must go down the river of night's dreaming
Flow, Morphia, slow
Let the sun and light come streaming
Into my life.
If it be told that i am on the fray
You'd know how to save my life.

Sleep, in this golden slumber
I will be here waiting
for both our mutual dreams to come true.
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Monday, May 19th, 2014
11:07 pm
Long time

I stay awake from my fear of dreams
The tears of sorrow and happiness that teem
From my beguiled and confused mind.

I find it difficult to find
Solace, or
Wholeness in my uncomfortable, undulating thoughts.

I do not know or understand if the love around me is real
A figment of my overproductive imagination.

Tell me true...
What know you of secrets I've shared?
Of memories I've dared
To relate in this wild-child fleeting glimpse at life?

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Sunday, July 28th, 2013
4:29 am

As I was walking down the stair
I met a man who wasn't there
He wasn't there again today
I wish, I wish he'd go away

One fine day in the middle of the night
Two dead men got up to fight
Back to back they faced each other
Drew their swords and shot each other
A deaf policeman heard the noise
He went and killed those two dead boys
If you don't believe my story is true...
Ask the blind man
He saw it too!

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Thursday, June 13th, 2013
8:38 pm

Was informed that I lost y job as of July 1 today. Fuck. Was getting sick of it but still. Hasc makes me out to be a horrible person, tardiness, absenteeism... They don't understand that holidays are two days and I'm not the most healthy person in the world. They don't believe me. But that's Hasc, they're always full of shit. Real story is company's expanding and they can't think of any new projects for me. I'm being let go, so to speak. Should I take up drinking and cutting tonight or tomorrow?

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Tuesday, April 23rd, 2013
7:53 pm

After long consideration I have decided that I am bi and am looking for mostly chat but also fun sometimes coby613 is my handle. I use my phone for Skype so please talk on vid or only vid if we're camming. Thank you
FB Jakie guy

Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone.

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7:27 pm
Fucking assholes

I fucking hate the world because everybody hates me. I have a clearly written prescribed diet on a prescription pad so Hasc has to follow it but still nobody gives a shit. I have never been able to follow the diet because they don't buy the ingredients I need or show me how to cook them properly. I can only go as far as seeing how things will taste and what ingredients should go into something but I am clueless to the practical parts like knowing how to prepare or how long or which way is the best way to cook. Everybody assumes I do because I can plan so far. I tried explaining this to the supervisor just now and he retorted "so I should be your slave"? Brainless wonder. Almost anything I say to anybody goes straight over their head because they feel I'm too smart and are insulting them ipso de facto io educationo Figure that one out dumbass! Also he's fucking Russian. I hate Russians with a passion. Liars, cheaters, thrives. Always looking to pull a fast one on you. This guy as no different. None of them are different. Everybody seems to know the quickest and best way to piss me off the most in any given situation. Russians, in particular have an inherent talent, a knack for pissing me off very easily and hitting me below the proverbial belt. Fuckem. I hate people because people hate me. I try and bring my intellect down a little to try and fit in with the rest of society but I can't make myself stupid enough. I am drowning in a sea of idiocy. If you stumble across this be sure to try and communicate your take on things. Or just go fuck yourself. Do what's comfortable for you

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Tuesday, February 5th, 2013
12:17 pm
is what i feel most every day
when things never go my way
like today

bullshit is all i ever get
the runaround answers from everybody
i ever knew, know or met

i hate my life right now.
i'll try and write in this more often now, btw.
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Wednesday, November 7th, 2012
9:40 pm

Suffice it to say, I have disproved some theories of myself (as mentioned earlier) I have been walking on the shoulder of the proverbial religious path. Now, however, I am taking the car out of neutral and getting ready to ease it to hopefully a faster gear than I've ever pushed it before. I have discovered what it means to "rekindle the flame" so to speak. Life is going to get more interesting now and I hope you will enjoy reading about it. Hope to see you soon! Pls comment as much as you want or can. I would like to know other people's input. Thanks!

Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone.

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Saturday, November 12th, 2011
10:21 pm

The banquet has been thrown
Death is in the air here, his felt prescience both at once tightens yet releases the tension

This moment has been anticipated for quite some time now
As He finally arrives on the scene, as if on que
He is not the unexpected, unwanted unexpected guest here
Rather, this party is for Him and he is the renowned guest of honor
The guests give of themselves
Freely and willingly
Their souls and lives are offered and accepted

And the punch bowl was emptied and all was done

Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone.

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Sunday, January 16th, 2011
11:03 pm
tonight tonight
I spent an unsurpassed time (for me) alone with my girlfriend for 6 hours straight. I was feeling a little extra romantic during the movie and I was uncomfortable with that, but by the end of the movie I was feeling much better and refreshed in general. WOO!
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Sunday, January 2nd, 2011
1:35 am
after an extremely long hiatus, i am now back on the scene! who's still here?
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Sunday, January 20th, 2008
12:32 pm
due to popular demand, i suppose i should start writing in here more often. i usually just hang out in the forums. so, hi everybody! (hi dr nick!) :-P
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Friday, December 14th, 2007
10:51 pm
My jobs very stressful (I work with both disabled people AND senior citizens). But i forgot hpw to tune my violin i havent played it for so long (I started just over 16 yrs ago!) I sing, but only recreationally, and only when asked. I've just been feeling like...i guess i feel judged and am confused as how people want me to act and am rebelling now i guess. I always had an inner attitude, but never acted up outwardly, save for hurting myself. Hence I'm writing now. I feel judged on every side of anything I do, particularly religiously at this moment. I became a religious Jew in high school, and that put people off to me but also gained some respect doing that. Now i live in NY and i think that people feel im either not religious enough or too religious. i really dont think people would understand details if they themselves are not religious Jews, but whatever. bottom line is: It's the sabbath, im not supposed to use a computor OR write and i don't really give a damn anymore. This relates to the topic because i was kinda apathetic growing up and..... sorry about the rant; I'm autistic and can't be too coherent sometimes.....i feel just really confused about everything: how to fit in, sexual stuff, about my future... i guess my main problem is not fitting in. I think i don't belong to any particular group anymore and don't here to begin to look for one that i do fit in; i don't know who i am . sorry for not being so clear about it, i have trouble expressing myself sometimes.
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Saturday, December 1st, 2007
8:33 pm
.....so maybe i was wrong. i think i am regressing to the state of mind (emotionally/mentally) that i had from 14-22. (see almost entire journal). i'm beginning to realize how much tension headaches suck :-( lots of stress for no reason (or none i can think of) eating too much (even when i'm not hungry i eat), fun stuff like that. seem familiar to anyone?
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